Yeah. I miss finding this sort of thing amusing too.

It's unimaginably horrible. I can't even find creationists funny anymore because I can't fucking stand to listen to any asshole that would have the fucking audacity to talk about how perfectly designed human beings are. This is one of the worst possible ways a human being could break and it is an excellent example of the universe we live in being indifferent to our suffering. It's as though the brain just decides to cause the person as much suffering as possible.

It's like watching somebody getting bullied by God. I can understand why people in close relationships end up drawn into the delusion. I was fortunate she didn't have a single, consistent delusion because I would have traded my reality for almost any of hers. Being in a standoff with police officers bent on killing the both of us would have been much easier to handle than the possibility that this woman that I love very much might have to spend the rest of her life in a state of terror.

Where is she now?

She's living with family. She's doing much better. She seems happier than before and has her shit together better than I do.

Good. Good to hear.

I'd hug you if i could, friend.

I think he is, don't you agree Zach?

Also threads... you gonna show them what eventually happened to Mike Zahn?

I actually haven't gotten that far down the rabbit hole yet. You wanna help me out with some direction?

Didn't end well, as you can imagine. Several months after this video, there were a few more that he posted almost entirely from an Apple store somewhere (I guess he was using their webcam, as his camera must've been lost, sold or destroyed over the course of his homelessness). He had been hit by a car, one which he strongly believed was an assassination attempt by his sister and his parents:

http://youtu.be/fPgbfykQn5k

There's another video before this as well. He suspected that his sister and his parents were trying to teach him a lesson about riding with a helmet, and to this end, had attempted to kill him to prove to him its importance. He remained steadfast before what he thought were the manipulations of his parents.

Soon after that, there was one more video, which... I really have a hard time following.

http://youtu.be/DQj2MqwyhyE

He was pulled over on his bike by an officer, and he strongly believed that this officer was just a middleman for a secret service group who had psychically scanned his mind, found out what he had been thinking, and then psychically told the officer to say those thoughts back to him. So in effect, the officer was "saying what I was thinking" and this was how he rationalized it. There's more, but, at least one of those videos should be posted, probably.

That was the last video for six months, until finally his sister appeared in the comments and told us that he had been found dead in Colorado in December of 2011. Her profile: http://www.youtube.com/user/GILLSTER67

Kind of saw that coming.

Yeah. I've never found this guy amusing, just sad and tragic. To spend one's entire short life in constant terror and misery. What a horrible thing.

It is serious really fucked up to think that this guy lived in unending confusion and desperate fear, every day, from god knows when this developed until he was pushed out of his house and then died.

In his last video, in the comments, someone asks "What was your childhood like?", to which he replied "Slightly better than current times but counterfeit, everyone I know staged a phony identity."

I mean jesus christ.

Jesus fucking christ that's terrible. Why didn't his family do something other than pester him about wearing a helmet? Like try to take fucking care of him?

God knows. I think it's one of those things where you can't help someone if they don't want help. I mean, if he was convinced that his family was an elaborate farce bent on tricking him, he's not going to take suggestions or pleads, he's gonna think it's all a trick. Formless paranoia consumed him.

If this was my brother, you can bet your ass I'd have him committed. The men in the white coats would come for him, and I'd be there to force him into the padded room. There's a point where the disease is in his head, and you can't let him decide these things for himself. He just was too far gone for choice.

This is Mark's sister. For those of you that really care about humanity in some degree, Mark was homeless in CO and was found dead in his make shift campsite on November 28th. For those that insist on making a mockery of him and his life, you are pathetic. I did not realize the following Mark had and the crazy amount of YOUTUBE videos he had created. When you have a brother that is mentally ill and homeless, its not viewed in an entertaining or fascinating capacity by which it was for many. Regardless, for those that posted to his "channel" (new at this) you were hooked in some shape or form. The night I learned he was dead, I spent many hours reviewing his videos. Mark will be missed.

Wow, unlike his sister, his YouTube followers wanted to know what he was up to BEFORE he died.

No wonder he ended up dead.

Assuming this random anonymous person on YouTube really IS his sister, yeah that's kind of my reaction too. Guy puts up his videos up on a web service where millions of people have access to it: HOW DARE YOU WATCH THEM AND COMMENT ON THEM AND WHAT A CRAZY FUCK THIS MAN IS.
Yeah, sorry I couldn't diagnose, in intricate detail, what was wrong with this guy prior to ever commenting on the crazy abusive shit he was putting everyone he came across through. Don't get me wrong, I don;t like seeing these people constantly tortured by their own schizophrenia, but I'm not going to beat myself up over my reaction to this endless stream of videos being flushed onto youtube. I'm sorry he's dead if that's really the case, but he was also a threat to the people around him and apparently no one was interested in trying to keep him away from doing harm to other people, much less himself. So if his family legitimately felt they couldn't do shit for him, whatever, but don't go judging everyone else if that's the case. It gets real fucking exhausting having to deal with people like this on a routine basis when their entire support base disappears.

No, I agree. I mean, you watch his earlier videos, it's him seriously just running down people on the street and like accusing them of being FBI agents. There's one where he stands in front of the counter at a gym and accuses the clerk of being a gangstalker for a full ten minutes before leaving. There's another where he is on his bike and thought someone yelled something at him, so he quickly turned his bike around and chased the guy into a store, at which point he parks his bike and gets out and runs into the store to find the man at the desk, imploring the clerk to call the cops. This guys was on a direct line to actually hurting someone. I genuinely feel like he was well on his way there.

It's just tragic, is all. I can't not pity the fact that he might very well have been physically incapable of pulling himself out of this insane delusion. Imagine being trapped like that, in your head. It's insane.