also that is fucking disgusting.

i like how the music in the background sounds like farting.

I believe that's supposed to be a firefly.

oh nevermind, they're delicious

And the mispronounced words.

As a skinny guy I'm always taken-back by people who lack the "'I'm full" feeling.

I lack that at a proper or even near proper dietary level, but I have the other magical ability; self-control.

I'm rarely hungry but often depressed or bored. Thankfully, much like how Sara is so fat she no longer has breasts, I'm often so depressed I can't even be bothered to go out and buy something bad for me and just don't eat altogether. Which is probably worse, but I'm not fat, so there you go.

I was so depressed I didn't eat.

Then some shit happened and they put me on an anti-psychotic and anti-depressants.

Now I have diabetes.

Thanks, pharmaceutical lobby.

Seriously though, I really do not know how my brain would function without the drugs. I have really, amazingly, crippling depression and anxiety to the point where I've had two trips to the state hospital as late as six years ago. I'd quit the drugs and stop being fat but I honestly do not know how I would maintain any kind of functionality without them.

Depression: The official state bird of poetv.

Tell them you have ADD and get Adderall, it will kill your appetite completely and make you more motivated to be active.

Don't forget to drink water, as it's easy to get dehydrated when you don't feel hungry for days.

Maybe this isn't the right place for a LJ, but I can borderline function in society and things are going pretty good for me (it's the best things have arguably ever gone for me, but I still spent five seconds or so debating if "pretty good" or "okay" was more appropriate), so I've been in no rush to make drastic changes. But when I fall into another mental canyon, I'm going to have the exact same problem: if the drugs don't fix the problems, I don't have any more options. That's even scarier, so I've avoided getting diagnosed or anything.

Now I have to make absolutely sure I've never posted my real name on e-mail address or anything on here.

This is why I like this place.

SIDE EFFECTS MAY INCLUDE:

JET BIN FEVER
MAGGOT BRAIN
SOLRO
HOOKER
KINGARTHUR
BALEEN

I've started to gain weight because I'm middle aged and drink too many IPAs. I am not depressed but that's probably due to some level of psychosis.

Well then hop on board the Depress Express! Next stop, Pharmatown!

Wow, glad this has been so cathartic for you guys. I'm getting married in a little over a month and for a long while now life has been really good for me. I'm sorry that so many of you have had bouts of depression, and I wish you all well, sincerely.

Public joy is vulgar as it is. Happiness has no place in the angora.

Good luck to thou on your marriage. shitto-shitte

Yeah, not bragging. I had a lot of dark points myself when I was younger. I think anyone who is worth a damn has gone through quite a lot of shit in their lives. I'm just lucky to have made it out and found myself in a place where I'm content.

If you're not fat , and under 35, don't get too smug about it.

If this is any help, fish oil has been a good thing for my depression. I take about 4000 mg a day, also magnesium and running 4 or 5 times a week. When I run and take fish oil there is always a huge difference in my (general) mood or ability to cope with shit.

It has also come in handy in the wake of the end of my disastrous relationship with a meth addict.

Lipitor.

also I'd probably eat these

Yeah, I can't lie. I'd try one and then probably eat a few more.

With real ingredients and a better understanding of marzipan, these things could be quite charming.

That is pretty much my half sister right there. At 30 she could waddle. :( :( :(

Yeah I've been making my own ice cream for a while and I've been preferring it on the less-sugary side (50 grams of sugar per 400 grams of dairy, compared to commercial ice cream which is usually in the 90-100 range), and now whenever I eat commercially-produced ice cream I'm just like HOLY SHIT THIS IS SO FUCKING SWEET.

But I'm also one of those weirdos who will eat 100% cacao and enjoy its complexity of flavor.

I've done that, too. I was surprised how much I liked cacao nibs.

god damn it, anybody save it?