So sorry to hear it man. The 5 stars are for keeping your chin high in the face of it.
Are you in the UK? If so, look for a Maggie's centre. They helped me a lot during my own illness and if they can help you in any way they will.
Do you have any social media presence? If you stop showing up, is there any way we can check in with you?
I won't say "stop coming to poeTV" because we love you here, but I hope you get out there and tear shit up over the coming months.
Oh, no. I'm so sorry, kingarthur. If you need an Internet stranger to talk to, I can dox myself or set up communication line or something for anything you need to share.
Well that sucks.
Not the video. The video is good.
I'm sorry dude.
This does not excuse you from movie night.
Take your time though, I just bought a blender to keep next to my computer.
I don't do stoicism, I make jokes, which is stoicism for stupid people.
What I really want to say is thank you.
Thank you for talking to me about the Invisibles, Doctor Who, and the billion other inconsequential things on poe. Thank you for being kind, apolitical, and pleasant. On a website that consists mostly of frayed edges, you're a much cherished woven center. Warp and woof, through and through. You make a difference to us.
|Scrotum H. Vainglorious |
The upside is that you won't have to worry about the potential of living long in a world where Donald J. Trump is the President of the United States of America.
|John Holmes Motherfucker |
|John Holmes Motherfucker |
Well, this is awful. I really don't know what to say at moments like these, but I wish you every comfort during the time you have remaining.
As a fellow son of the South, I blame Mississippi.
I"m fully convinced this state eventually kills the people who can't get out and don't have enough cash to live here.
We love you.
I LOVE YOU GUYS TOO!
Seems like I've been intermittently traveling back to POEtv and POE Red for well over a decade. In fact I know I have because I remember posting here from before Katrina.
That's terrible. I don't know what to say that would make the situation better.
I know the prognosis is grim but are there any experimental treatments available you could sign up for?
No, unfortunately, there's nothing can be done as of now but we are keeping an eye out for clinical trials.
The chemo is very hard right now, is every third week, and is being done in order to prolong my life which will be shorter without it.
They can't operate and the tumors are too spread around for radiation to work effectively.
|Sudan no1 |
I'm very sorry. You are a good poster here and I also admired how you stayed out of fights, something I couldn't manage. Thanks for making this place nice.
Well, I've gotten in fights with Bort over ridiculous shit and I'm sorry for that, but thanks.
I'm devastated to hear this. I wish there was something I could do.
Sorry to hear this.
If you are planning to travel to Australia in the time you have left, I would be happy to give you a place to stay, and to show you around.
I like you. You're a good person. I'm honestly never sure how to convey well-wishes in this situtation, given the context. But you have mine.
|Miss Henson's 6th grade class |
Wait, I'm pretty sure that you're the poster that got his house washed away by Hurricane Katrina, no? First that, now this. I know that life's not supposed to be fair, but there should be some limits.
I am extremely saddened to hear this. I've always enjoyed your posts here.
Yes, I'd like to say my 37 years have been easy but I've kind of been on a life-altering hellbusride since age 19 or so. I've had moments of bliss, but as for major life events, those are all pretty universally bad.
Thankfully, I have my parents, girlfriend, and family.
take refuge in the fact that soon you'll be in valhalla with the Feurer and Eva Blondie and my recently departed cat, Hobbes.
i'll leave you with a verse that i've always found helpful in dealing with the crushing inevitabilty of impending death
this hardcore ghetto gangsta image takes a lot of practice
i'm not black like barry white no i am white like clint black is
so if man is five and the devil is six then that must make me se7en
this honky's going to heaven
but if i go to hell
oh well i hope i burn well
i'll spend my days with kurt cobain mark twain marvin gaye and lawrence welk and kurt cobain kojak mark twain and jimi hendrix poltergiest
and webster, yeah, emmanuel lewis
'cause he's the anti christ
the roof the roof
Donald Trump for President 2016
|Adham Nu'man |
Everyone on this website is a stranger to me, and yet I have spent a lot of my life here, so, I consider you my friend.
I have no idea what this type of news could ever mean to you, or to me, if I were ever to receive it.
I know you probably don't believe this, but I love you. I do. You are worth so much. Even though the world will keep spinning, it will be less without you.
I'll third the above. I've mainly just lurked for God knows how long, and commented just a handfull of times. That non withstanding this still affected me more than I thought it would.
Kingarthur, best of luck, or whatever inadequacy one spouts in these cirumstances.
Goddamn, Ive been lurking around this place so long that you people feel like family
My thoughts are with you
I bothered to log in to tell you to hang in there. I know two people that beat "terminal" cancer.
I stared at an empty comment box for fifteen minutes and that's what I came up with - a typo and an accidental reply.
I'm dumb, but I'm thinking of you. I wish you the best.
It's still more than I've been able to come up with.
That's rough. Sorry that you're sick. Best wishes.
Fuck. fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck.
KingArthur, this sort of stuff shouldn't happen to anyone. Fuck.
I'm so terribly sorry. I find the fact that it came out of nowhere mortifying.
Please share as much as you can if you can. How did you find out?
I was doing perfectly fine. I then noticed about seven to eight months ago issues when trying to swallow food. Slowly, over time, this began to be accompanied by chest pain. As a fat diabetic, I instantly went to the doctor, who ordered a barium swallow and upper GI series and chest x-ray to rule everything out as my heart seemed just fine. That series of tests returned everything normal EXCEPT for an esophageal stricture. That's where one has a compressed or constricted esophagus, naturally. THis then prompted a trip to a gastroenterologist who did an endoscopy. THis returned a mass in my throat in the distal third of my esophagus which prompted coughing and bleeding even under anesthetic. I was informed this was definitely a "mass" (meaning cancer). I was then referred to a radiologist and oncologist in tandem who scheduled a PET-CT scan which returned results the next day to the effect of, specifically:
I have an adenocarcinoma in the distal third of my esophagus which no one knows how it got there because I've never had acid reflux, at least not that I was aware of. The cancer has spread to sites in my lymph nodes in my lungs and neck. THe cancer is also in the tippy top of my stomach and is growing up into the esophagus in a cylindrical fashion. The cancer is also spread through lymph nodes in the chest.
ALl this means the cancer is at stage IV and there are too many sites for surgery to be effective and that chemotherapy to slow and shrink growth is the only option because radiation would have to cover too many sites as well.
As far as how I'm emotionally dealing with it: I'm trying to get disability and medicaid to kick in, which I am under special rules for due to my diagnosis, terminal nature, etc. ANd I'm doing that so I can protect my potential beneficiaries to my life insurance and meager pension and not have to burn through them.
I feel like I spent the last fifteen years trying desperately to break back into the middle class and that little amount of money is what I have to show for it so I want to protect it so I can leave it for who I want to leave it for.
So I'm trying to get through bills, insurance shenanigans, estate planning, SSA-disability, how to protect life insurance plans ones my sick leave and annual leave run out, etc. I feel like if I can square away the paperwork bullshit (and there is a lot because in America, even dying is a painful ordeal), I can get past it to the point where I can deal with it and relax a little.
Thank you so much for sharing so openly. I know you are just writing out what happened, but the second last paragraph was poetry that needs to be put somewhere where more people can see it.
Is there anything a bunch of random strangers on the internet can do for you? Are you all good knowing how to transfer your money tax efficiently?
You description of your financial situation suggests that you have been careful with your spending. Can someone here order you a meal of something that you really like eating but don't usually get? I.e. above pizza grade, I don't know, like a favorite Indian restaurant or something...
Live life as fully as you can. I'm trying not to sound cliche here but I hope you kick that bastard cancer in it's goddamned teeth and continue to plague this wonderful site for years to come.
Sorry to hear the diagnosis. Cancer sucks.
|The Mothership |
I am crying right now.. I really am, because every goddamn comment above resonates in my heart of hearts, and please know that I an genuinely sorry...... please keep in touch and stay with us here until the end as best you can.
Cold comfort, I am sure. I will post as many critiques of the deep south as I can in the near future. If you find yourself in the Bay Area for any reason, come holler at me.
I have enjoyed our conversations here over the years; I mean that.
THanks. I love all you guys and girls too.
I think I've only ever bothered to comment once on this site that I've visited almost daily for a really embarrassing number of years, so who cares what I have to say. Nevertheless, that sucks, you're memorably funny, and I wish you well.
I hope you do have as much fun as you physically can in the next couple months, but please do remember that while the odds are low, if you fight it, there is a chance. Please don't give up on treatment or anything else that could stop the disease, because then your chances really do drop to zero.
Thanks just for being here.
I've sort of seen poetv as populated by a bunch of Steinbeck characters, perhaps the paisanos from Tortilla Flat, who, through their flaws and infighting, at times, stick together because each contributes to whole of life they share live together, each then being important in virtue of that contribution.
kingarthur, whatever it is we're all doing here, making for ourselves, and sharing with each other, I'm glad to have lived it alongside you.
That's an apt description of this place.
|Caminante Nocturno |
You have my condolences and deepest sympathies. I truly wish there was more I could do for you than just writing that.
I'm sorry man. We are all living with a death sentence, some of us just know the date. My sister has a couple of months left from ovarian cancer and that knowledge is such a curse and blessing mixed together.
Five stars for evil. Sympathies, condolences, hopes you pull through are all yours.
Huge outpouring here and I'm sure more trying to find the words. I'll just bash 'em out. Poetv has been a bit of a whetstone of my personality and tastes and you've been a big part of that. I don't know you but love you-
please pack 5-6 years of fun and hellraising into the next months or just flat out beat the motherfucker.
Maybe if you're keen, video journal up too so Poetv creeps can check in on you.
All of the above. (I'm not good at this).
I am so sorry.
I know I'm just another internet stranger adding her awkward two cents, but genuine and bright people like you are why I keep coming to this site.
Please take care. :(
I want to say "keep hanging around poetv" but then I realize that probably sounds mildly selfish and you probably have way more going on in your life than to be concerned about your online presence at this point.
But....keep hanging around poetv.
I"m going to make an effort. I'm planning on living as much as I can. I got tickets to Kraftwerk in September.
|Robin Kestrel |
Well, shit. :-(
I'm so sorry man. Don't give up even if it's only a small chance. Keep fighting.
I don't log in or post much here, but we've had a few conversations here in the past, so I'm sorry to hear your news. Best of luck in your journey and battle.
That's terrible. Wish there was something else to say, but I'm coming up blank. You've got my sympathies.
Fuck man, I'm sorry. We need to find a way to have the Internet version of a Viking funeral for you.
i'm not going to pray for you, because studies have shown that praying for people who are ill decreases their chances of recovery.
thank you for your service here
Wow man...wow...I hope you don't mind a good long rant here because you're about to get one.
I'm going to preface this by saying that I'm a really shy person, I even have a hard time posting stuff online for some reason or another. So when I started coming here back in 2006 I lurked. 2006 was also the year I graduated high school and then didn't go to college, unlike all my friends.
After that I was completely alone, I was too shy to meet people, even too shy to post online. At that time I started to come back to POEtv, POE red and POEnews every day. The amount of hours I spent reading comments watching videos and being exposed to a larger world through you people is amazing.
Everyone who posted, thereby, became an odd sort of one sided friend. You shared your ideas, opinions, art, personalities ect. while I sat quiet in the corner and watched and listened.
Kingarthur you in particular introduced me to Polysics, Velvet Underground, Nick Cave and that's just the beginning. You expanded my music tastes, made me laugh in the comments and generally improved my life. I just want to say thank you for everything you made my life better even if you didn't know it.
Awwww, thanks. Stay on your journey, young funyun.
This place, one of the least terrible places on the internet, will be poorer without you.
I am sorry. I hope your time is happy.
That's awful. :( so sorry.
|Binro the Heretic |
Sorry it took so long to post. I couldn't think of anything to say.
I still can't think of anything to say, but I wanted to say something.
I hope with all my heart the finish is peaceful and painless.
|Architeuthis Tux |
I'm deeply sorry.
Are you close enough to the coast that it could be related to the dispersants used in the Deep Water Horizon spill?
Damn, dude. Godspeed.
I haven't been to poetv in a few days, so I'm not sure if you'll get this but me and my wife come here as often as we can together and are thinking about you. We wish you joy and love. Hug a friend for us
I realized last night I hadn't expressed my condolences on this thread and it bothered me. Allow me to add my voice to the chorus of people urging you to rock your face off in the time remaining. Also:
Sorry to hear that bud :(
Hey, kingarthur. I don't comment often on here. I lost my mom to cancer in December. She lived in Mississippi, and now I'm there a lot, buying her place from my brother and sisters. I guess what I'm saying is if you ever want to hang out, let me know. I can't say I understand but...I don't know. It's sorta in my wheelhouse and we don't know eachother so maybe it wouldn't be as bad as with someone you did. Memorial west of 49 was pretty awesome, better than what you'd expect for Mississippi. Don't stipulate no dehydration unless you just hate your loved ones.
kingarthur! If you can make it, a few of us have a group therapy session on #poeTV on Freenode. You should join us. We'd love to hear what's going on in your head and be someone you can talk to.
I guess I should give a bit more info.
Here's the webchat portal: https://webchat.freenode.net/
Still have you in my thoughts, man.
I am so sorry to hear that. I have always enjoyed your posts over the years. Please take care Kingarthur.
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