This video is Demonius being introspective and self-aware. That video is him being bitter and raging against the world.

Happy belated B-day

Sorry I missed it. Hope it was a really nice day.

Awesome people AND a shitload of lions!

Happy birthday.

I hope you guys keep those up, I hope to drop by once the summer holiday starts and I can get out of sync w. GMT +2 again.

I just went through hell learning OBS, so it will at least be going on until I feel I have gotten a hell's worth of entertainment out of it.

Dude, that sounds awful. Are you aiming to write for tv?

Demonious speaks truth here. I'm glad he has found his way to it...I empathize with him. It would be a wonderful world on which he could find meaningful relationships (employment is one of them) and escape what he has laid out as his fate.

Yeah, I've seen DemoniusX like this a few times, and he gives good advice when he's miserable. Granted, there's the unspoken truth that a lot of his problems are a direct result of his being fat, gross, lazy, and an asshole, but regardless of how he got to where he is, there is wisdom in what Demonius says.

A couple things:

First, I haven't celebrated my birthday since, God, probably age 11? 12? I still have friends who do things - one in particular still gets hundreds of dollars worth of presents from his family - but me and birthdays parted ways a long, long time ago. I actually have to say I don't really mind, and if anything I'm more comfortable NOT doing things for my birthday than I was doing things, but it's definitely something that happens to a lot of people, and if you're the sort of person who places great stock in birthdays, it's important to cherish them while you can.

Second, and more broadly, yeah SDC, I too can relate to the CWCs and D-Xs of the world. My low point is actually behind me now (knock on wood?) and, for the most part, I'm a lot better off today than I used to be. I have friends now, and money and galpals and prospects for the future, but I wound up losing pretty much everything in my early-to-mid 20s, including basically all of my friends and family. Some of the stuff I lost I really don't miss, but some of it I do (or did), and I remember what a fucking shock it was to wake up one morning to the realization that everything you ever cared about or worked for was gone. Indeed, I think the memory of that time might be one of the reasons why I'm stressing so much over my (relatively minor) problems right now; because I don't want to lose everything again, and I don't want my new friends to go through the same sort of bullshit in their own lives that I once did. I don't want to be DemoniusX. And I really should make a point of savouring the good stuff NOW, lest I wake up in another ten years time to find I've failed again, and become a fat shut-in wearing a game-controller T-shirt.

Oh, and don't even get me started on me and ChrisChan. I "empathize with" the fuck out of OPL, but in some very complex and convoluted ways.